Well, my day started off fairly crappy. The kids were up at 5.30, so the little bits of sleep I got after that, weren't anything to write home about.

I didn't manage to get fully dressed and showered before everyone's bus time, and, Quinn had no school today, so after Robin was off to school, I stayed in my sweats unshowered a tad longer than necessary. Hanging out on the computer, checking out the Anthropologie website and chatting with Rosie, while Quinn was glued to the tv.

By late morning, Quinn had started asking me to go for a walk. I kept saying "yes", but honestly, I really wanted to stay home and get a few things done. The poor kid.

I was feeling a bit sorry for myself, and kept looking at Kel's picture, wondering why I just couldn't hug him anymore. Then when I was trying to be alone with my self pity and Kelvin's picture, Quinn kept coming into the room chattering.

So I got myself in the shower, got dressed, felt annoyed upon looking in the mirror because of my breakouts (that darn Halloween chocolate!) and went outside with Quinn to take a walk around the block.

It did help, got me going a bit more, the breeze blew some of the blues out of my head.

I didn't do anything too substantial right after, but at least I got out the vacuum cleaner.

After lunch, Quinn took a nap, and I decided to kick myself in the butt and get my act together.

I cleaned out my desk, got out my bill paying and financial Kelvin related issues binder and the phone.

First I attempted to move forward on my mass health application, with not much success. I ran into another voicemail. where I left a message and never got called back.

I did some more research and figured out the Social security finally came through. Whew! a steady income! Weight off my shoulders!

Then i decided to pay some bills. Upon calling some it turned out that some were already paid since now all the financial stuff is rolling again, the automatic bill pay with some was too. Yay! another weight!

Then I called the credit card folks. I had already the week after Kelvin died, to cancel all, but I had never heard from them again and found that strange. I'd thought at least they'd want a death certificate and then I would find out what to do with the balances.

It was bugging me, because I didn't suddenly want to get surprised by creditors.

After some more phone calls, I made the joyous discovery that legally they can't make me pay. The lady  asked me if I wanted to so the deceased person's name stays in good standing.

Hmm, really, I don't think Kelvin at this point cares about that does he? So I answered, Well, I'd rather not pay, after all, I am a widow with 3 kids and no job..

"Oh yes, yes, answered the lady, you will just need to blablabla.."

So there, there was another HUGE weight off my shoulders!

We're making progress here baby!

So yeah, by the end of the day, I felt a lot more empowered than I did the first half.

I talked to Kel's picture a bit tonight. He was there smiling at me as usual, and I told him, "No worries babe, we're doing o.k".